Once again I exist in the darkness
Hiding from the world
Ashamed of what I look like
Ashamed of my lack of control
Emptiness and loneliness
Is all I feel today
In this void of nothing
This void that never ends
Nyx
falling
Trapped in hell
I hear the gate slam
As I fall into the flames
All I feel is emptiness and pain
I lie in the darkness
No longer wanting to exist in this world
With the gate slammed shut
I find my resolve
I have accepted my fate
I can not save myself
From my own mind
I just want to feel the flames
For the last time
Nyx
Addictions
Push him out
Let him in
Push him out
Let him in
Pain
Emptiness
More pain
I wish I could change
But I’ll probably just stay the same
I had a taste of my addiction
Now it’s gone
I just want to be dead
Nyx
Hell
How do I make it stop
How do I escape
This hell that is my fate
Nyx
Walk away
I see those eyes
Glare through the night
The blue so beautiful and bright
Beyond those eyes
A hollow soul lies
With no empathy or emotion
No capability of devotion
A predator waiting for prey
He eats you
Then tosses you away
You will pine for him
Because he draws you in
His fake smile shows no remorse
Because he does not care about you
He will rip you apart
Then tear out your heart
You will be left there to bleed
Until you gain the strength
To quench the need
And walk away
Nyx
Pain
I feel myself fall
Farther and farther
I go
Into the depths below
It never stops
This cycle that is my life
There is no end to this game
I will never be the same
As I lay here broken
Pieces of me slip away
Once again all I feel is pain
Nyx
Pandora’s box
I sit here numb
To everything around me
I feel the world cave in
As I look down at the water
I feel the apathy
As I make my choice
A choice I have made before
With every closing door
I take one last moment
To let myself feel the pain
It cuts so deep
I will never be the same
I look at the sky
Before I jump
Into the cold water below
This is where I belong
So this is where I go
When all is lost
I will take myself there
To Pandora’s box
Hoping for the darkness
Hoping for some peace
Hoping that this time
I do not come back
I just want the darkness
I just want to see the sky
I just want to see the sea
Then I want to die
Nyx
Falling
I feel myself falling
Further and further
When does it end
When do I hit the ground
Nyx
Hope lies within my dreams
I am sitting here
Alone again
Silent and still
I wish I could say
That I am fine
But I would only be lying
Let them sleep
As I bury the pain again
Let the apathy set it
So I can wake up again tomorrow
I feel the emptiness fill me
As I listen to the sounds of the night
As I embrace the serenity of the darkness
And find comfort in the stars
In a few hours a new day will start
Once again I am reminded
What being alone means
I am lost in my own world
Where hope lies within my dreams
Nyx
Lost to this world
I feel numb
Lost to this world
I am fading
Fading into nothing
I no longer care
About anything at all
All I want to do is free fall
Free fall to nothing
Close my eyes
Feel the air
Pushing against my skin
I feel the darkness push me further
As I slowly disappear
Farther and farther I fall
Until I am merely mist in the air
Darkness pushes me down
He wants me to disappear
He wants me to hit the bottom
This is when peace will come
This is when I will go back
Back to where I come from
Nyx
To my readers,
This poem is how I have felt in the past, not today. Thank you all for your continued support. Peace and love. Nyx
Words From The Borderline 
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