The void

Once again I exist in the darkness Hiding from the world Ashamed of what I look like Ashamed of my lack of control Emptiness and loneliness Is all I feel today In this void of nothing This void that never ends Nyx

Trapped in hell

I hear the gate slam As I fall into the flames All I feel is emptiness and pain I lie in the darkness No longer wanting to exist in this world With the gate slammed shut I find my resolve I have accepted my fate I can not save myself From my own mind I … Continue reading Trapped in hell

Addictions

Push him out Let him in Push him out Let him in Pain Emptiness More pain I wish I could change But I’ll probably just stay the same I had a taste of my addiction Now it’s gone I just want to be dead Nyx

Hell

How do I make it stop How do I escape This hell that is my fate Nyx

Walk away

I see those eyes Glare through the night The blue so beautiful and bright Beyond those eyes A hollow soul lies With no empathy or emotion No capability of devotion A predator waiting for prey He eats you Then tosses you away You will pine for him Because he draws you in His fake smile … Continue reading Walk away

Pain

I feel myself fall Farther and farther I go Into the depths below It never stops This cycle that is my life There is no end to this game I will never be the same As I lay here broken Pieces of me slip away Once again all I feel is pain Nyx

Pandora’s box

I sit here numb To everything around me I feel the world cave in As I look down at the water I feel the apathy As I make my choice A choice I have made before With every closing door I take one last moment To let myself feel the pain It cuts so deep … Continue reading Pandora’s box

Falling

I feel myself falling Further and further When does it end When do I hit the ground Nyx

Hope lies within my dreams 

I am sitting here  Alone again  Silent and still  I wish I could say  That I am fine  But I would only be lying  Let them sleep  As I bury the pain again Let the apathy set in So I can wake up again tomorrow  I feel the emptiness fill me  As I listen to … Continue reading Hope lies within my dreams 

Lost to this world 

I feel numb  Lost to this world I am fading  Fading into nothing  I no longer care  About anything at all All I want to do is free fall  Free fall to nothing  Close my eyes  Feel the air  Pushing against my skin  I feel the darkness push me further  As I slowly disappear  Farther … Continue reading Lost to this world