When hope leaves you 

I sit here and reflect upon my life 

I question my emotions 

I question my decisions 

I question where I am 

How did I get here 

Where do I go 

Back to the familiar pain 

Or forward to something 

That may be the same 

I feel the panic as it rises 

Unsure which way to place my foot 

Where do you go 

When you have been here before 

What do you do 

When hope leaves you 

Nyx

In a million ways 

My darling 

I just want you to know 

That for a million days 

In a million ways 

My love for you will only continue to grow 

You have become my sunshine 

After the storm

You have become my moonlight 

Showing me the way each night

You have become my peace 

When everything spins out of control 

You have become my everything 

You are the other half of my soul

Nyx 

When doors open 

Sometimes when you feel like you are about to split in half

Someone comes along and points you towards a new path

Sometimes doors do open

When they were shut before

Sometimes you can find someone

That you completely adore

When you feel like everything is caving in

Sometimes a hand breaks through

Holds on and pulls you out into the light

If this happens do not let go

True kindness and empathy is the best gift given

If we all gave more of this

This world would be a better place

Every word of empathy and kindness

Strengthens us as a whole

Because deep down we are the same

We are all connected

Regardless of mind and body

Everyone has a soul

Nyx

I’m a dreamer 

With the ups and downs I see

Hills and mountains laid out before me

Here and there I find a path 

Here and there I find a stream 

Every now and then a valley 

Like a story book from a dream

I cherish these moments 

They are rare 

When I suffer I take myself there 

To my valley

By the stream 

Where the grass is high 

Where the water is blue 

In this place I feel 

Like I am home 

In this place I feel 

That there is nothing 

That I cannot overcome 
Nyx

Break the silence 

Sometimes I think that I am beaten 

Sometimes I think that I am done 

That is when I stop and remember 

Everything that you have done 

These actions drive me forward 

These memories that you made 

You were the one I trusted 

My life was in your hands 

Everything I did to make you proud of me 

Everything I did I wanted you to see 

I was your daughter 

I was the one you were supposed to protect 

Instead all you did was lie to me 

Confuse me with truths mixed with lies 

Until all I wanted was to escape you 

Everything I have done 

Is a result of what you did 

Everything I do 

Is a fight to beat you

You are the reason I am who I am 

Yet you are the reason I still breathe 

You are the reason I stand

Well dear father someday you will see

What you created 

What you made 

Someday you will see 

That you will never beat me 

I may be bruised 

My bones may break 

I may wake up everyday and suffer 

From eternal heartache 

But when all is lost I see what you have done 

This is what drives me forward 

This is what makes me carry on 

I will fight for those born to suffer 

What you have put me through 

I will fight through the pain 

I will fight because I have no choice 

There was no turning back when I broke the silence 

There was no turning back when I used my voice 
Nyx

I wish for peace tonight 

The loneliness grips my beating heart 

It crushes my chest 

It rips me apart 

When I sit still it all comes back 

All the pain 

All the heartache 

Everything that has been done

Everything that I wish I did 

Sometimes I wish I could delete my mind 

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time 

But most of the time I just want to escape it 

Sit still and alone and not have to take it

Without a distraction all I feel is agony 

Without a distraction all I see is darkness 

At this moment I just wish I was not me 

At this moment I would give anything for the light 

Just a break from the pain

I wish for peace tonight 

Nyx 

Lose myself to music

Lose yourself in the music

Lose yourself to the sound

Words flow through your mind

Words that are not bound…

By anything other than thought and emotion

So soothing are the words…the notes high and low

Expression that is given more through sounds of harmony…then words alone

Once again I lose myself to the music

Once again my peace has been found

Nyx

Walk the path 

If you could hit rewind 

Would you go back in time 

Find a different path 

Make a different decision 

Wouldn’t it be great if we had that control 

To know what path leads us where 

To know where it is safe to step 

To know where the cracks are hidden 

To see ahead 

To know where happiness is 

You cannot change the choices you made 

And you cannot change what others have done 

Still we continue forward 

Still we walk our path toward fate 


You can have it all

What have I become

Who was I before

My hearts full of pain

Pain you left behind

You can have it all

Everything you did

Take it back and feel

Pain that hurts your heart

You can have it all

Everything you’ve done

Take the years you took…take the years of pain

Beneath the stains of time…I hope I disappear

You can have it all…every single year

I hope you feel it all

The pain you left behind

I can’t disappear

I am still right here

Love and Devotion

My favorite place to be is by the ocean

I love the sound of the waves

It reminds me of how deeply I feel emotion

So far and vast these feelings flow

Sometimes too much for me to handle

I try to remind myself to go slow

So that I do not feel myself dismantle

Wake up slowly

Try to talk slowly

Keep a safe space

So no one can hurt me

I hope that someday I will let them in

I hope that someday I will jump in

Into the cold depths of the ocean

So you can truly see the extent of my love and devotion