Up and down
Down and up
Why can’t they stay the same
These emotions
That I just cannot contain
It is a form of torture
I wish on no one
I do not know how to stop them
They come and then they go
This is what happens when I stop moving
This is when it happens the most
All I can do is pray for peace
And pray that it will change
Nyx
I have lost faith in the world
Because of you
I believe in nothing
Because of you
You had a mouth full of promises
But a pocket full of secrets
All the lies that you told me
All the things that I did not see
They almost caused my demise
Why couldn’t I see it in your eyes
Why couldn’t I see the lies
Maybe my heart will beat again someday
It does not beat today
Nyx
Disclaimer
This was inspired from the song mouthful of diamonds from the band phantogram.
Great song.
I sit here and reflect upon my life
I question my emotions
I question my decisions
I question where I am
How did I get here
Where do I go
Back to the familiar pain
Or forward to something
That may be the same
I feel the panic as it rises
Unsure which way to place my foot
Where do you go
When you have been here before
What do you do
When hope leaves you
Nyx
My darling
I just want you to know
That for a million days
In a million ways
My love for you will only continue to grow
You have become my sunshine
After the storm
You have become my moonlight
Showing me the way each night
You have become my peace
When everything spins out of control
You have become my everything
You are the other half of my soul
Nyx
Sometimes when you feel like you are about to split in half
Someone comes along and points you towards a new path
Sometimes doors do open
When they were shut before
Sometimes you can find someone
That you completely adore
When you feel like everything is caving in
Sometimes a hand breaks through
Holds on and pulls you out into the light
If this happens do not let go
True kindness and empathy is the best gift given
If we all gave more of this
This world would be a better place
Every word of empathy and kindness
Strengthens us as a whole
Because deep down we are the same
We are all connected
Regardless of mind and body
Everyone has a soul
Nyx
With the ups and downs I see
Hills and mountains laid out before me
Here and there I find a path
Here and there I find a stream
Every now and then a valley
Like a story book from a dream
I cherish these moments
They are rare
When I suffer I take myself there
To my valley
By the stream
Where the grass is high
Where the water is blue
In this place I feel
Like I am home
In this place I feel
That there is nothing
That I cannot overcome
Nyx
Sometimes I think that I am beaten
Sometimes I think that I am done
That is when I stop and remember
Everything that you have done
These actions drive me forward
These memories that you made
You were the one I trusted
My life was in your hands
Everything I did to make you proud of me
Everything I did I wanted you to see
I was your daughter
I was the one you were supposed to protect
Instead all you did was lie to me
Confuse me with truths mixed with lies
Until all I wanted was to escape you
Everything I have done
Is a result of what you did
Everything I do
Is a fight to beat you
You are the reason I am who I am
Yet you are the reason I still breathe
You are the reason I stand
Well dear father someday you will see
What you created
What you made
Someday you will see
That you will never beat me
I may be bruised
My bones may break
I may wake up everyday and suffer
From eternal heartache
But when all is lost I see what you have done
This is what drives me forward
This is what makes me carry on
I will fight for those born to suffer
What you have put me through
I will fight through the pain
I will fight because I have no choice
There was no turning back when I broke the silence
There was no turning back when I used my voice
Nyx
The loneliness grips my beating heart
It crushes my chest
It rips me apart
When I sit still it all comes back
All the pain
All the heartache
Everything that has been done
Everything that I wish I did
Sometimes I wish I could delete my mind
Sometimes I wish I could go back in time
But most of the time I just want to escape it
Sit still and alone and not have to take it
Without a distraction all I feel is agony
Without a distraction all I see is darkness
At this moment I just wish I was not me
At this moment I would give anything for the light
Just a break from the pain
I wish for peace tonight
Nyx
Lose yourself in the music
Lose yourself to the sound
Words flow through your mind
Words that are not bound…
By anything other than thought and emotion
So soothing are the words…the notes high and low
Expression that is given more through sounds of harmony…then words alone
Once again I lose myself to the music
Once again my peace has been found
Nyx
If you could hit rewind
Would you go back in time
Find a different path
Make a different decision
Wouldn’t it be great if we had that control
To know what path leads us where
To know where it is safe to step
To know where the cracks are hidden
To see ahead
To know where happiness is
You cannot change the choices you made
And you cannot change what others have done
Still we continue forward
Still we walk our path toward fate
Words From The Borderline 
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