I feel my heart stop beating
I feel myself break in half
Why am I always left here
Alone in this place
How many demons must I conquer
To forget your face
You have destroyed
Only to recreate
It is too late to change
This monster that you made
I try to dream
I try to float away
Instead I scream
As I drown on the inside
Remembering all the lies
I try to live in this moment
But this moment does not last
What I would not give
To be able to erase the past
Nyx
When I reflect
When I stop
When I think about
Where I come from
All I feel is pain
An agony so piercing
An agony so deep
It is all consuming
This agony I feel
What I wouldn’t give
For it not to be real
These images of my past
And all the pain that they bring
Thankfully they do not last
Because I shut them away
This is how I survive
This is how I breathe today
Nyx
Once again I feel my chest cave in
I feel my head ache
I long for an escape
I long for peace from this life
I long to escape today
Go somewhere far away
Sometimes I dream of being someone else
Ignorant to the world around me
I do not want to be aware of the things I see
I just want to feel no pain
I want to know that I am sane
But here I sit the same as before
In pain yearning for peace once more
Nyx
I sit here and I dream
About a life without the pain
On the inside I just scream
In my chest it is always the same
The pain stabs through my heart
It tears right through my soul
Taking everything that I am
Until I lose control
My mind shuts down
My stomach turns
As I grow more weary
I am sick of the dark
I am sick of the dread
I do not have voices in my head
I do not have demons clawing at me
What I have is only
Complete and total agony
On the inside I scream
With each heartbeat
With each breath
I long for peace
I long for rest
Nyx
Your words they cut so deep
Huge cuts that slice through my soul
I knew that I would pay a price
I knew that there would be a toll
You slander me with words you say
Thinking that this is my price to pay
With each lash and every word you spew
All I see is venom dripping off your tongue
Something’s now I see so clearly
You have been the anchor
You have been the one holding me down
You have been watching
Holding my head under water
Waiting for me to slowly drown
Nyx
Once again I feel myself drowning
Once again I just want to scream
I want to float away
I want to live in a dream
I wish I could escape this nightmare that is my life
I wish I could escape the pain
I want to stop pretending
I want it all to stop
I want to get away from you all
Before I dive
Before I fall
