Today I felt myself fall backward Into the sadness and the pain The longing to escape was so great Even greater than my own self hate Slowly I took myself away from the darkness Because I had to Instead of thinking of the sadness Instead of thinking of the things I have lost I thought … Continue reading I will not be consumed by darkness
darkness
Self hate
I listen as the world moves around me Self hate is boiling inside Bubbling over into reality Nyx
Embrace the darkness
Once again I embrace the darkness As alone as I have always been He is the only comfort I know The only one who never leaves I hear the world outside A world I do not belong in I belong with darkness He never lets me down I sit here waiting Knowing he will come … Continue reading Embrace the darkness
A bird with a broken wing
I had to let you go That short lived feeling Has long passed I need to find a way To be ok today I need to find a way To stop the pain again What the hell do I do When all I want is to escape To feel something else Besides this eternal heartache … Continue reading A bird with a broken wing
Blood of my blood
I had to let you go again Blood of my blood Torn from me you will always be By no fault of yours Just the choice to love one of the destroyers of my life A destroyer I will never forgive A monster only I can see Who cradles you in her arms Nyx
Reality
Today I wanted to stay in my dreams There was no pain or hardship there I didn’t want to wake up to this reality The reality of the loneliness in my life The reality of the skin I live in The reality of the shame I feel I wish it all wasn’t real Nyx
Seconds that speed away
I just want to escape Leave this pain behind Leave this world behind The sadness has passed Now I am numb Dead inside Staying where no one can see me Aware of how quickly the seconds go Aware that soon my time will be over This time that continues to speed away All I can … Continue reading Seconds that speed away
In my skin
I wish that I could escape From my own mind But I am stuck here With my thoughts With my self hate Every moment of every day I hate being in my skin Nyx
The Pit
I am alone again My thoughts have slowed down I slept and then woke up to sadness Once again not knowing what to do At least I have my furry companions They lay beside me now Taking away a little piece of the pain That pulls the rest of me away My will is broken … Continue reading The Pit
Pulling me
I sit here and I feel the pain The pain that loneliness brings I remind myself that I have to feel I remind myself that I cannot shut it off or I will never heal But the heaviness wears me down I feel it pulling me further away Then I feel the pain in my … Continue reading Pulling me
Words From The Borderline 
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