It ends

It is incredible to think That within moments Everything can change That is the danger in feeling that bliss It seems the happier I am The faster it ends Here I am again completely numb After all of that crippling pain I am alone Sitting here trying to continue to not feel Anything at all … Continue reading It ends

Bliss

Blissful moments are the peace we seek Pleasure we never knew we could feel Until that moment has left you Showing you that it wasn’t real Bliss is the foreplay of torture The beauty of the moment slips away Until there is nothing left There is just another day Like so many days before I … Continue reading Bliss

I just want to scream

And scream And scream some more Nyx

Dear God

Once again I long for death Devastated and broken By what I have spoken To someone who cared about me Sometimes I wonder if the pain will rip me apart Sometimes I wonder if the pain will stop my heart What would I be If I was not me Darkness and pain Fire and anger … Continue reading Dear God

Today

I’ve been avoiding the sunlight I’ve been avoiding my life I am so tired of many things Most of all I am tired of myself Tired of the shame Tired of the pain Tired of existing as I am What is the point of life If I am unable to live it Why give me … Continue reading Today

I am happy, now that’s just the saddest lie. Kid Cudi

Existing

I kind of want to die again It’s been a little while It’s very hard to be alive right now Its very hard to exist as myself in this current state that I am in Should I do something Should I help others in some way Or have I already said All there is to … Continue reading Existing

There is no escaping who you are

What do you do when you want to escape your own skin What do you do when you are tired of the emptiness What do you do when your tired of that uneasy feeling There is no escaping who you are Nyx

Pushed perceptions

Today is another Day like yesterday I try to find something Anything that will make me want to get up I wish I could just be happy Instead I just feel lost I try to think of things in a positive way I try to think it’s great that I woke up today But for … Continue reading Pushed perceptions

Never ending nothing

I am lost again today I am just a hole A black mass Of never ending nothing Never ending nothing Nyx