Into the abyss

I feel my body as it starts to shut down In this moment I have no hope I find no ground I fall into the darkness Into the abyss of my mind I no longer care I have no sense of time I no longer hope I no longer fear All I do is sit … Continue reading Into the abyss

Escape

Apathy is my friend It is the only way I will survive Disconnect or die This is what I feel I have known all along That happiness isn’t real Those moments of peace.. They never last I am haunted by the present I am haunted by the past There is no escape From the pain … Continue reading Escape

Apathy

I lie here Feeling the apathy I need I can no longer feel the pain It became too great again Nyx

Hope lies within my dreams 

I am sitting here  Alone again  Silent and still  I wish I could say  That I am fine  But I would only be lying  Let them sleep  As I bury the pain again Let the apathy set in So I can wake up again tomorrow  I feel the emptiness fill me  As I listen to … Continue reading Hope lies within my dreams 

When my soul is gone 

Sometimes despair drags me down Through this haze of memories Through years of turmoil My body sinks Until it is anchored down Then the room fills with water As I lay chained to the ground Once again I gulp for air Until I can no longer breathe This is when the emptiness comes This is … Continue reading When my soul is gone 

I have lost all hope 

I have moments of peace  They do not last long  Then I feel the pain  As I try to sing along  Sometimes words may help me Sometimes they do not  All I know for sure  Is peace is all I have ever sought  No matter how much I have cried  No matter how much I … Continue reading I have lost all hope 

No more tears today 

At this moment I trust no one  At this moment my hope in others is gone  I feel no joy in the company that I keep  My heart has been ripped open By all of the promises that have been broken I shed no more tears today  I have said all there is to say  … Continue reading No more tears today 

Another dawn 

I climb out of the dark  Just to be pulled back in  Another day has dawned  Let the games begin 

Help

I feel my body weighed down  It is so hard to walk  It is so hard to breathe  This weight it crushes me  Weighs me down from the outside in  At this moment I feel nothing  I am just pushed down by it all  Gulping for air  With no cry for help  No way to … Continue reading Help

Darkness follows continued…

Darkness will follow me wherever I go  In the end everyone goes away  Darkness tells me so Darkness is not my enemy  He is my reality I try to push him aside  But he always finds a way He inflicts the pain  He sees my weakness  He sees my shame  He knows the apathy is … Continue reading Darkness follows continued…