I wake up and try to think I can do this today I can will the anxiety away

Anxiety 

I try not to worry about tomorrow  I try not to worry about yesterday  Somehow this doesn’t matter  No matter what I tell myself  No matter what you say to me  Anxiety, It takes away the words you say It takes away my rational mind  Until there is nothing left  But this electricity is wired … Continue reading Anxiety 

The cost 

Today I feel beaten  Today I feel lost  The toll keeps growing  I can’t keep up with the cost  Nyx

I will win again today 

When I feel defeated When I want to stay down  I find the anger  I find it somehow  I remember what they have done  This is why I fight  This is why I have to will myself to move  This is why I strive to be better  Every single day  This is how I find … Continue reading I will win again today 

The tears I have not shed 

For the arms I have not felt  For the tears I have not shed  For the loneliness your absence brings  For the years of torment and pain  I hope you got what you needed from me  I hope what you stole was worth it to you You created a monster that day  The day you … Continue reading The tears I have not shed 

No goodbyes 

I feel another piece break off  It crumbles before it hits the ground  How I wish there was nothing left  How I long to cease to exist  The pain it cuts so deep  I will never find the peace I seek  I just want to fade away  No more sorrow  No more pain  Please just … Continue reading No goodbyes 

I will never stop fighting 

I feel the emptiness as it starts to grow  I feel it slip through the cracks  It is starting to show  My face no longer wants to smile  The anger inside me  It just continues to build  The rage it boils  The pain burns  As my fists clench  I know I will fight you all  … Continue reading I will never stop fighting 

My forever 

In my mind I see fields  Filled with flowers of color  Filled with grass so green  I feel the breeze Sweep across my face  Peace fills me in this place  I see myself as beautiful  As I walk slowly  Moving with grace  This is how I want to see myself  Smiling in this field  Forever … Continue reading My forever 

Lost in the dark 

I am lost in the dark  Running so far  It's never fast enough  To forget what I have seen  Never fast enough  To forget who I thought you were  I thought that I would be true to you  No matter what you do  I was wrong  Nyx