Nothing Left to Say

There are so many words that I have said There are so many words that I have written None of it really matters When I am talking into the wind When a face becomes a shadow Where a person used to be The words they are so hollow No one ever really hears me I … Continue reading Nothing Left to Say

Solace in the dark

Sitting in the dark Crying again Letting go of another person Another strip of my heart is gone The pain is so great That I have to shut down If I didn’t I would break completely There is no coming back from this There is no way to change it I’m still here breathing Enduring … Continue reading Solace in the dark

False hope

I can have this hope That someday I will write to you And for longer than a few moments A few precious hours I will not suffer That hope dies a little more Every single day Today is another day That a piece of me has been stripped away Left to burn in the flames … Continue reading False hope

Dialogue with my friend darkness

“Hello Darkness my old friend It’s nice to see you again” “My sweet girl why are you so restless? Can’t find that peace you still seek? Can’t find an ear to listen to the screams? Well here I am my dear I will listen as you scream in pain Then I will take you with … Continue reading Dialogue with my friend darkness

That familiar feeling

I feel that familiar ache It grips my chest again The sadness lingers Never far from the surface Sadness brings this feeling No words can truly describe it All my life I have fought This feeling that I must endure I have learned I must embrace it There is no cure Maybe someday this will … Continue reading That familiar feeling

Covered in paint and powder

She suffers in ways That no one can see The agony gets swept aside By the powder she spreads across her face Covering the darkness Covering the scars There is no part left to be seen She covers it all Underneath the paint Underneath the skin The darkness hides the flame The fire that keeps … Continue reading Covered in paint and powder

Welcome to my reality

Imagine the worst pain you have ever felt When your heart was broken When you were broken Imagine having that pain Over and over again Every single day All due to the words of someone else Whoever is filling the void My unattractive sickness Is that what you see Welcome to my reality Nyx

Hollow soul

The sadness hits me As soon as I close the door I feel the hate for myself More than anything else The hate, the shame, and my hollow soul Nyx

Burning

There it is again That old familiar pain Taking away another piece of me What do you do When all hope is gone Where do you go When there is nowhere left There is nowhere I can feel peace for long Nowhere that it does not hurt Everything that is wrong with me I see … Continue reading Burning

Forget me

When the clouds turn dark and grey All I want to do is fade away Forget who I am Forget who I was And be someone else Nyx