The tears I have not shed 

For the arms I have not felt  For the tears I have not shed  For the loneliness your absence brings  For the years of torment and pain  I hope you got what you needed from me  I hope what you stole was worth it to you You created a monster that day  The day you … Continue reading The tears I have not shed 

No goodbyes 

I feel another piece break off  It crumbles before it hits the ground  How I wish there was nothing left  How I long to cease to exist  The pain it cuts so deep  I will never find the peace I seek  I just want to fade away  No more sorrow  No more pain  Please just … Continue reading No goodbyes 

Lost in the dark 

I am lost in the dark  Running so far  It's never fast enough  To forget what I have seen  Never fast enough  To forget who I thought you were  I thought that I would be true to you  No matter what you do  I was wrong  Nyx   

The clouds are closing in

Trying to push through today But the clouds are closing in They are there to remind me That darkness hovers It still exists within Just beyond my currents thoughts The darkness seeps through I feel the pain as it starts to burn Then I close my eyes and see All the things I have seen … Continue reading The clouds are closing in

When my soul is gone 

Sometimes despair drags me down Through this haze of memories Through years of turmoil My body sinks Until it is anchored down Then the room fills with water As I lay chained to the ground Once again I gulp for air Until I can no longer breathe This is when the emptiness comes This is … Continue reading When my soul is gone 

Ripped apart

Live and learn they say  Why do we have to learn By being ripped apart Where does the pain end  When does this learning start  I do not believe these words are true  Each piece that is pulled from me  Is another piece gone  I was always this strong  What I have learned is how … Continue reading Ripped apart

Lost 

I question everything  I question everyone I don't know where I am  I don't know what I have done I am lost right now  My steps have led me astray  I hope I find my way again today  Nyx

No one left 

There are some things  I will never understand  A love I will never see  This was never meant for me  The type of love bonded through blood This is forever lost  I fill the void in other ways  Sometimes it has a cost  I can fill my mind with wishes  Dreams and hopes of love  … Continue reading No one left 

Bleeding inside 

Hopeful for a moment  Then the pain hit  I cannot control these emotions  I wish that I could  I wish that someone  Really understood  How unbearable the pain is  I sit hear bleeding inside  Trying to hold on yet again  I am so tired my friends I just want it to end  Nyx

When hope leaves you 

I sit here and reflect upon my life  I question my emotions  I question my decisions  I question where I am  How did I get here  Where do I go  Back to the familiar pain  Or forward to something  That may be the same  I feel the panic as it rises  Unsure which way to … Continue reading When hope leaves you