Side effects 

I feel my chest start pounding But I can not control it  The anxiety is growing  There is nothing I can do  This is the side effect  Reminding me of what I went through  I can not change  What I have done  I can not change the past  All I can do is keep moving  … Continue reading Side effects 

Hold on 

How did I get here  My world has changed  Right before my eyes  One decision  One step forward  And once again  My life before is gone  In a blink that reality  No longer exists  In this moment my world is foreign  I do not know where I am  I do not know where I am … Continue reading Hold on 

Never again 

I feel the pain  As I grow weary again  There are some things  I will never understand  All I know for sure  Is that I will never be controlled again  Nyx

With the rising sun

Sometimes I see flashes  Memories from before  I see where I have been  I see what I have done  I do not want to see  These things that haunt me  All I want is peace  I want to breathe again  Hopefully I will find it soon Before I lose the light from the moon  I … Continue reading With the rising sun

Resilience 

I walk forward  Not looking back Trusting in my instincts  Finding my resolve  Every day I fight  Every day I see  The resilience that is there  Built up inside of me  There is no certainty  In this life  This I know is true  The only thing I do know  Is that you have to believe … Continue reading Resilience 

Loneliness 

Alone I suffer  This pain I feel  This reality of loneliness  My hell is real  Nyx

Until I slip away

You keep yourself Just beyond my reach When you are ready You pull me down below Drown me in water Or you throw me sideways Through the window With all the shards of glass And the water I cannot swallow You torture me until I slip away Nyx

For the ashes of what once was 

As I walk through the trees  I feel the breeze  It is all I have to calm me  In this moment as I grieve  For the wishes and dreams I did not receive  For the ashes of what once was  For the memories that you gave me  For the days that I have wept  For … Continue reading For the ashes of what once was 

I will not rest 

Here comes another piece of metal  Thrown my way  I raise my shield  Getting angrier every day  I will bring justice  I have no choice  I do not have a sword  But I have my mind  Underestimate me  Then you will see  Your fate is sealed  I will strip your life away  A little more … Continue reading I will not rest