I wake up and try to think I can do this today I can will the anxiety away

Anxiety 

I try not to worry about tomorrow  I try not to worry about yesterday  Somehow this doesn’t matter  No matter what I tell myself  No matter what you say to me  Anxiety, It takes away the words you say It takes away my rational mind  Until there is nothing left  But this electricity is wired … Continue reading Anxiety 

I will win again today 

When I feel defeated When I want to stay down  I find the anger  I find it somehow  I remember what they have done  This is why I fight  This is why I have to will myself to move  This is why I strive to be better  Every single day  This is how I find … Continue reading I will win again today 

The tears I have not shed 

For the arms I have not felt  For the tears I have not shed  For the loneliness your absence brings  For the years of torment and pain  I hope you got what you needed from me  I hope what you stole was worth it to you You created a monster that day  The day you … Continue reading The tears I have not shed 

I will never stop fighting 

I feel the emptiness as it starts to grow  I feel it slip through the cracks  It is starting to show  My face no longer wants to smile  The anger inside me  It just continues to build  The rage it boils  The pain burns  As my fists clench  I know I will fight you all  … Continue reading I will never stop fighting 

I have to prevail

The anxiety smoothers me I can no longer breathe Survival is what I need In order to succeed The struggle to keep my head above water It gets harder everyday If only I could find someway To assure I will make it If only I could find someway To feel safe again As my breath … Continue reading I have to prevail

Within my dream

I see what he has done  I see the grass that has grown brown  I see the trees wither and die around me I see the sky fade into grey  I walk away from the dark   With every tear I shed  With every sting that this nightmare brings  I push forward  And as I … Continue reading Within my dream

Turning the page

I sit here hoping I can keep This eternal peace that I seek Today I have won I have felt the light Shine down from the sun I have felt the breeze on my face I ran through the woods At my own pace I will keep this hope in my heart As I turn … Continue reading Turning the page

When my soul is gone 

Sometimes despair drags me down Through this haze of memories Through years of turmoil My body sinks Until it is anchored down Then the room fills with water As I lay chained to the ground Once again I gulp for air Until I can no longer breathe This is when the emptiness comes This is … Continue reading When my soul is gone