Side effects 

I feel my chest start pounding But I can not control it  The anxiety is growing  There is nothing I can do  This is the side effect  Reminding me of what I went through  I can not change  What I have done  I can not change the past  All I can do is keep moving  … Continue reading Side effects 

Never again 

I feel the pain  As I grow weary again  There are some things  I will never understand  All I know for sure  Is that I will never be controlled again  Nyx

With the rising sun

Sometimes I see flashes  Memories from before  I see where I have been  I see what I have done  I do not want to see  These things that haunt me  All I want is peace  I want to breathe again  Hopefully I will find it soon Before I lose the light from the moon  I … Continue reading With the rising sun

Resilience 

I walk forward  Not looking back Trusting in my instincts  Finding my resolve  Every day I fight  Every day I see  The resilience that is there  Built up inside of me  There is no certainty  In this life  This I know is true  The only thing I do know  Is that you have to believe … Continue reading Resilience 

For the ashes of what once was 

As I walk through the trees  I feel the breeze  It is all I have to calm me  In this moment as I grieve  For the wishes and dreams I did not receive  For the ashes of what once was  For the memories that you gave me  For the days that I have wept  For … Continue reading For the ashes of what once was 

I will not rest 

Here comes another piece of metal  Thrown my way  I raise my shield  Getting angrier every day  I will bring justice  I have no choice  I do not have a sword  But I have my mind  Underestimate me  Then you will see  Your fate is sealed  I will strip your life away  A little more … Continue reading I will not rest 

I grab your hand 

The clouds are grey today  The summer has slipped away We can not stop the passing of time  All I can do is fight for what is still mine  As the seconds spill into the air like sand  I take a deep breath  And I grab your hand  Nyx

Strength

The heaviness wears me down All I want is sleep I fight through another day Dreaming of an empire I will build But I may not make it Before my skin starts to decay I may not make it Before the lights fade To the dimmest shade of grey I try not to dream of … Continue reading Strength

I will win again today 

When I feel defeated When I want to stay down  I find the anger  I find it somehow  I remember what they have done  This is why I fight  This is why I have to will myself to move  This is why I strive to be better  Every single day  This is how I find … Continue reading I will win again today