Depression

Today I feel so hollow

The depression it hits me hard

There is no thought

There is no action

That makes me feel this way

It is just a feeling that I live with

Every single day

Sometimes I forget

Until I sit still

Then I realize that this depression

It is real

There is no rhyme or reason

For the way I feel

I sit here alone in silence

Hoping this feeling will end

This is when I try to escape

This is when I pretend

Nyx

Disclaimer: When I write, it is not always literal, it is not always about the present. Please do not interpret anything literally. I only say this, because I know that I have readers who think that what I write is always at this moment, and that is not the case. I will not always say when or where or how these poems come to me. I always appreciate everyones empathy, concern, and happiness when I post my poems. Please keep in mind that these posts are not always what they seem, they are not always literal, and they are definitely not always present day.  Please know that I appreciate everyone who enjoys my writing, I just think this needed to be said. To everyone who reads and supports my poems, I appreciate the hell out of you. 

The clouds are closing in

Trying to push through today

But the clouds are closing in

They are there to remind me

That darkness hovers

It still exists within

Just beyond my currents thoughts

The darkness seeps through

I feel the pain as it starts to burn

Then I close my eyes and see

All the things I have seen before

And what is in front of me

The path is still there

It breaks off here again

Asking me if I want to go back

To my land of pretend

Nyx

Lost 

I feel lost today

And I hope that no one can see

The sadness behind my eyes as the ground beneath my feet is swept away

My heart breaks moving from one place to the next

I am so tired of smiling…and pretending to be ok

I just want to be alone

My foundation is gone

As I move on to another temporary place

I just hope my sadness is hidden behind the smile plastered on my face

Nyx

 

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Rotten 

I wake up and I live

I wake up and give

What’s left of what I have inside

The darkness took a chunk of who I am

I can no longer pretend to be whole when I am not

I may have missing pieces but I have not forgotten

That sometimes a person is just born rotten