I wake up and try to think I can do this today I can will the anxiety away
life is not a pot of petunias
The cost
Today I feel beaten Today I feel lost The toll keeps growing I can’t keep up with the cost Nyx
The tears I have not shed
For the arms I have not felt For the tears I have not shed For the loneliness your absence brings For the years of torment and pain I hope you got what you needed from me I hope what you stole was worth it to you You created a monster that day The day you … Continue reading The tears I have not shed
I will never stop fighting
I feel the emptiness as it starts to grow I feel it slip through the cracks It is starting to show My face no longer wants to smile The anger inside me It just continues to build The rage it boils The pain burns As my fists clench I know I will fight you all … Continue reading I will never stop fighting
Lost in the dark
I am lost in the dark Running so far It's never fast enough To forget what I have seen Never fast enough To forget who I thought you were I thought that I would be true to you No matter what you do I was wrong Nyx
To be free
I feel so heavy So weighed down I feel the darkness Rise above my head Pulling me further Filling me with dread Maybe I will make it Maybe I will not Maybe I will find a way To fix myself again Maybe I will wake up When all I want is sleep Maybe I will … Continue reading To be free
I have to prevail
The anxiety smoothers me I can no longer breathe Survival is what I need In order to succeed The struggle to keep my head above water It gets harder everyday If only I could find someway To assure I will make it If only I could find someway To feel safe again As my breath … Continue reading I have to prevail
Within my dream
I see what he has done I see the grass that has grown brown I see the trees wither and die around me I see the sky fade into grey I walk away from the dark With every tear I shed With every sting that this nightmare brings I push forward And as I … Continue reading Within my dream
When my soul is gone
Sometimes despair drags me down Through this haze of memories Through years of turmoil My body sinks Until it is anchored down Then the room fills with water As I lay chained to the ground Once again I gulp for air Until I can no longer breathe This is when the emptiness comes This is … Continue reading When my soul is gone
Finding balance and strength
I hear the sound of the world outside As I try to find balance in my life I have always struggled to get by I have never stopped asking myself why I have made the decisions I have so far Then I reflect and tell myself This is who you are With every step forward … Continue reading Finding balance and strength
Words From The Borderline 
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