Dear God

Once again I long for death Devastated and broken By what I have spoken To someone who cared about me Sometimes I wonder if the pain will rip me apart Sometimes I wonder if the pain will stop my heart What would I be If I was not me Darkness and pain Fire and anger … Continue reading Dear God

I can’t wait for that last tick

I hear the tick Of each moment in time It comforts me I know that with each tick I come closer to my end I can’t wait for that last tick Tick tock Nyx

I have lost all hope 

I have moments of peace  They do not last long  Then I feel the pain  As I try to sing along  Sometimes words may help me Sometimes they do not  All I know for sure  Is peace is all I have ever sought  No matter how much I have cried  No matter how much I … Continue reading I have lost all hope 

Away from the light

At this moment all I yearn for is death All I yearn for is peace Peace from the darkness that haunts me Peace from the pain What I would not give for eternal rest To not wake up tomorrow To not have to pretend To just say good bye to yesterday And cease to exist … Continue reading Away from the light

Help

I feel my body weighed down  It is so hard to walk  It is so hard to breathe  This weight it crushes me  Weighs me down from the outside in  At this moment I feel nothing  I am just pushed down by it all  Gulping for air  With no cry for help  No way to … Continue reading Help

Free Fall #2 

Sometimes I wonder if I am being tested  To see just how much I can take  Sometimes I just do not understand  Why I never seem to land  It is just a constant free fall Never ending emptiness My feet never find the ground  All I feel is everything pushing me down  What I would … Continue reading Free Fall #2 

You let me fall

The sky is clear today  But the blue fades into grey  I sit here and I think about all the things that I would say  Would I be angry  Would I be sad  Would I say anything at all You left me when I needed you the most  You let me fall  Nyx  Image source … Continue reading You let me fall

Forget 

When the floor beneath my feet crumbles and gives way When I feel the walls close in around me When I feel the water rising above my head When the people around me astound me When time almost stands still When I feel myself slip When I feel myself fall I look up to the … Continue reading Forget