The heaviness wears me down

All I want is sleep

I fight through another day

Dreaming of an empire I will build

But I may not make it

Before my skin starts to decay

I may not make it

Before the lights fade

To the dimmest shade of grey

I try not to dream of tomorrow

I try not to dream of yesterday

But this leaves me with an emptiness inside

One that will not go away

I cannot fix these fractures

They have taken their own form and shape

They have sliced away my feelings

Until there is nothing left

Self-destructive thoughts

And the longing for the dark

This is what I see today

Yet, I have stood up

As I write these words to you

I just need the strength to stay awake

I just need the strength to find myself again

I just have to make it

I just have to stand

Nyx