Hoping I make it back to you

Life is an endless array of obstacles

This I know is true

All I do is bear it and keep going

All I do is hope I make it through

These obstacles block the way home

They make me crawl inside myself

Longing to be alone

I always see them coming

These obstacles you see

I brace myself hoping I am wrong

Then I realize I cannot change what is coming

It is my destiny

My fate

There is nothing I can do

It is always too late

It seems some things have been decided

But maybe this is untrue

All I can do is keep moving forward

Hoping I make it back to you

Nyx

My purpose 

I have been brought into moments of complete despair 

But this is how I find my strength 

This is how I find hope 

I have embarked on a journey 

Each stride a lesson to be learned 

Each breath drawn is another that I live

Each day I am given a gift 

Something that is taught to me 

Something that I can give 

My purpose is to educate 

Those who are unaware 

Of everyone in need of love 

Of everyone in need of care

Someday I will fulfill this purpose 

This I know is true 

Because I am still standing here 

Writing these lines to you 

Nyx 

I’m a dreamer 

With the ups and downs I see

Hills and mountains laid out before me

Here and there I find a path 

Here and there I find a stream 

Every now and then a valley 

Like a story book from a dream

I cherish these moments 

They are rare 

When I suffer I take myself there 

To my valley

By the stream 

Where the grass is high 

Where the water is blue 

In this place I feel 

Like I am home 

In this place I feel 

That there is nothing 

That I cannot overcome 
Nyx

Break the silence 

Sometimes I think that I am beaten 

Sometimes I think that I am done 

That is when I stop and remember 

Everything that you have done 

These actions drive me forward 

These memories that you made 

You were the one I trusted 

My life was in your hands 

Everything I did to make you proud of me 

Everything I did I wanted you to see 

I was your daughter 

I was the one you were supposed to protect 

Instead all you did was lie to me 

Confuse me with truths mixed with lies 

Until all I wanted was to escape you 

Everything I have done 

Is a result of what you did 

Everything I do 

Is a fight to beat you

You are the reason I am who I am 

Yet you are the reason I still breathe 

You are the reason I stand

Well dear father someday you will see

What you created 

What you made 

Someday you will see 

That you will never beat me 

I may be bruised 

My bones may break 

I may wake up everyday and suffer 

From eternal heartache 

But when all is lost I see what you have done 

This is what drives me forward 

This is what makes me carry on 

I will fight for those born to suffer 

What you have put me through 

I will fight through the pain 

I will fight because I have no choice 

There was no turning back when I broke the silence 

There was no turning back when I used my voice 
Nyx

Goodbye to yesterday 

In this life so much is uncertain 

So much is unseen 

There is so much doubt 

One thing I do know 

Is that love is real 

I know it when I look in your eyes

I know it when I hear your voice 

I know it when I feel myself 

Being pulled toward you with a force I can not stop 

A force I can not control 

A force so strong that nothing can keep me from you 

There is no doubt 

There is no fear 

There is only love 

Love that I know will only continue to grow

Night after night 

Year after year 

When my heart races I know yours does the same 

When I am in pain I hear you scream my name 

Because you are my other half

The other side of my soul 

Now I know what it feels like to be whole

Now I know what it feels like to have no doubt or fear 

Because I have found you my love 

Because I have found you my dear 

I will hold your hand in mine as we walk together this way 

Together we step in sync as we say goodbye to yesterday 
Nyx

Grip the ledge 

You are in the center of the storm

Grip the ledge and hold on 

It’s not over yet 

Do not give up 

But do not hold your breath

Just keep fighting 

And you will see

This is your fate 

This is your destiny 

Nyx

Whispering in my ear 

Sometimes I can not  help but wonder

Do I have a guide

Is there someone always there

Showing me the way

With the right words to say

Whispering in my ear

Telling me there is nothing to fear

Well if I do have a guide I am grateful

Maybe that is how I have come this far

Maybe that is how I have made my choices

Trusting in the unknown

Knowing that my instincts have shown

Everything I have needed to see

Which path to take

Which hand to hold

If you are there my guide

If you have led me this way

Then you saved me today

If you have led me this way

You freed me from it all

If you are there my guide

Thank you for catching me before I fall

Please stay in my heart

Please guide me through

These vines and thorns that prick me

That will someday lead me to you
Nyx

I am just a dreamer

I am just a dreamer 

Looking for beauty in everything I see

Especially the people around me 

There is something I am missing 

Something I have not found

In the meantime I live within these dreams

Of different places and different faces 

Of valleys, rivers, and streams 

Ancient and modern cities with people everywhere

Learning the way they live and how they get from here to there

This is where I go when life drags me down 

This is where a path lies ahead waiting for me

My dreams will show me the way to my destiny

Nyx

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The First Storm

Life can change everything

In the blink of an eye

A storm you cannot escape

With no reason why

I push through the storm, and find the sea

That’s where my destiny awaits me


I wrote this a few months ago. Thought I would share since it is the first. 

Nyx

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