“We should always be asking ourselves: “ Is this something that is, or is not, in my control?” Epictetus

Humbled

A path I thought was certain Is no longer there for me I know I must accept this But the anxiety burns my chest I was so sure of myself So sure of who I would be So sure of what I would do It filled me with joy These thoughts of the path I … Continue reading Humbled

Embrace the darkness

Once again I embrace the darkness As alone as I have always been He is the only comfort I know The only one who never leaves I hear the world outside A world I do not belong in I belong with darkness He never lets me down I sit here waiting Knowing he will come … Continue reading Embrace the darkness

A bird with a broken wing

I had to let you go That short lived feeling Has long passed I need to find a way To be ok today I need to find a way To stop the pain again What the hell do I do When all I want is to escape To feel something else Besides this eternal heartache … Continue reading A bird with a broken wing

Blood of my blood

I had to let you go again Blood of my blood Torn from me you will always be By no fault of yours Just the choice to love one of the destroyers of my life A destroyer I will never forgive A monster only I can see Who cradles you in her arms Nyx

Reality

Today I wanted to stay in my dreams There was no pain or hardship there I didn’t want to wake up to this reality The reality of the loneliness in my life The reality of the skin I live in The reality of the shame I feel I wish it all wasn’t real Nyx

Seconds that speed away

I just want to escape Leave this pain behind Leave this world behind The sadness has passed Now I am numb Dead inside Staying where no one can see me Aware of how quickly the seconds go Aware that soon my time will be over This time that continues to speed away All I can … Continue reading Seconds that speed away

A warrior with a voice

I feel pride in how far I have come I have fell down more times than I can count But I do get up eventually, and after every fall I remember who I am now What I have grown into A warrior with a voice so loud and clear That people listen now A voice … Continue reading A warrior with a voice

Faith

Uncertainty ruled my thoughts today But self reflection guided me Onto a better path It showed me what I needed to see There is no certainty in the steps we take in life But there is faith in a future that can be bright Nyx

Disgust

My body feels foreign It disgusts me Will I ever love myself Will I ever find a way To not hate myself again today Nyx