Nothing left 

What do you have to be  To exist in this world  What do you have to become  In order to survive it  What do you do  When there is nothing left of you  Nyx 

Erase me

I feel my heart stop beating I feel myself break in half Why am I always left here Alone in this place How many demons must I conquer To forget your face You have destroyed Only to recreate It is too late to change This monster that you made I try to dream I try … Continue reading Erase me

Monotonous life

Each day I rise with hope  Some days it lasts  Some days it does not  Today I hope I find the peace that I seek I hope that in a few hours  I do not feel weak  I hope that deep inside I keep  Some form of strength left  Because I feel beaten down  I … Continue reading Monotonous life

Lost to this world 

I feel numb  Lost to this world I am fading  Fading into nothing  I no longer care  About anything at all All I want to do is free fall  Free fall to nothing  Close my eyes  Feel the air  Pushing against my skin  I feel the darkness push me further  As I slowly disappear  Farther … Continue reading Lost to this world 

The tide 

I try to push the feeling away  But as the panic rises  I have no control  It bursts through me like a tidal wave There is nothing I can do today  The tide has blown me away  Nyx 

Drifting 

Underneath the lamplight I lay my weary head Thinking I might be safer But still wishing I was dead A drifter is what I was I guess I still am Drifting from here to there Going no where Stepping forward Then stepping back Waiting for the next swing Bracing myself for the next hit Wondering … Continue reading Drifting 

How I breathe today 

When I reflect When I stop When I think about Where I come from All I feel is pain An agony so piercing An agony so deep It is all consuming This agony I feel What I wouldn't give For it not to be real These images of my past And all the pain that … Continue reading How I breathe today 

Yearning for peace

Once again I feel my chest cave in I feel my head ache  I long for an escape  I long for peace from this life  I long to escape today  Go somewhere far away  Sometimes I dream of being someone else  Ignorant to the world around me  I do not want to be aware of … Continue reading Yearning for peace

Float away 

I feel my skin burn within  I feel my heart shatter  I cannot help but ask myself  Why does anything matter  I try to make it through each day  I try to hold my head high I show a smile upon my face  A smile that isn't real  All I want is peace from this … Continue reading Float away 

As my heart peels away

I watch as the sun rises  I watch as the sun sets  I can not help but wonder  Is this as good as it gets  These moments here and there  These moments when I find my way  These moments when I write to you  When I show you the way  I wear my heart on … Continue reading As my heart peels away