The tide 

I try to push the feeling away  But as the panic rises  I have no control  It bursts through me like a tidal wave There is nothing I can do today  The tide has blown me away  Nyx 

Drifting 

Underneath the lamplight I lay my weary head Thinking I might be safer But still wishing I was dead A drifter is what I was I guess I still am Drifting from here to there Going no where Stepping forward Then stepping back Waiting for the next swing Bracing myself for the next hit Wondering … Continue reading Drifting 

How I breathe today 

When I reflect When I stop When I think about Where I come from All I feel is pain An agony so piercing An agony so deep It is all consuming This agony I feel What I wouldn't give For it not to be real These images of my past And all the pain that … Continue reading How I breathe today 

Hoping I make it back to you

Life is an endless array of obstacles This I know is true All I do is bear it and keep going All I do is hope I make it through These obstacles block the way home They make me crawl inside myself Longing to be alone I always see them coming These obstacles you see … Continue reading Hoping I make it back to you

Believe in you

There are moments when I lose hope in everyone Then I realize that I do not need them The only thing I need Is to believe in me Nyx

No more tears today 

At this moment I trust no one  At this moment my hope in others is gone  I feel no joy in the company that I keep  My heart has been ripped open By all of the promises that have been broken I shed no more tears today  I have said all there is to say  … Continue reading No more tears today 

A lion who fears no one

When the walls cave in on me  When it is too dark to see  I feel the anger beneath my skin  It is part of the darkness buried within The rage pushes me forward  It gives me strength  I have reached a path  A path of no return  If you are in my gaze  You … Continue reading A lion who fears no one

Never slowing down

As my world spins and spins around me My thoughts a shattered mess I stop to think to myself When is the next test Waiting for the next battle Never resting Never slowing down I only feel peace When I listen to the sound The music soothes my ranting mind When I am chained and … Continue reading Never slowing down