Author: Nyx

This face

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What have I become

Who was I before

I do not recognize

This face I see reflected at me

Maybe I am already

Everything I was meant to be

Nyx

Wishes

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There are so many things

That we just do not know

What tomorrow will bring

How today will go

It is comforting to see

That you have each other

I truly want to believe

That we have a destiny

That you were meant to find each other

That things are the way they were meant to be

All I know for sure

Is that I see love in both of your eyes

I wish you nothing but happiness and love

Nyx

Pushed perceptions

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Today is another

Day like yesterday

I try to find something

Anything that will make me want to get up

I wish I could just be happy

Instead I just feel lost

I try to think of things in a positive way

I try to think it’s great that I woke up today

But for all the positive quotes I read

All the pushed perceptions that should make this better

I still sit here empty

I still sit here in sorrow

Longing for a life I never had

Nyx

Walk away

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My perception sees wrong intention

Is my perception real

Is this sinking feeling justified

Take take take

That’s what I see

She takes takes takes

Until there is only a shell of me

I used to want to give

But sometimes giving is not enough

I realize today

That sometimes the only answer

Is to walk away

Nyx

Will I find myself again

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I wake up feeling this tension

It wraps around my heart

I wake up with good intention

But I feel this anxiety

It is there as soon as I wake

Can I get through this day

Without feeling my heart break

Can I get through this day

Feeling better at the end

Will I find myself again

Nyx

Never ending nothing

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I am lost again today

I am just a hole

A black mass

Of never ending nothing

Never ending nothing

Nyx

I will not be consumed by darkness

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Today I felt myself fall backward

Into the sadness and the pain

The longing to escape was so great

Even greater than my own self hate

Slowly I took myself away from the darkness

Because I had to

Instead of thinking of the sadness

Instead of thinking of the things I have lost

I thought of the things I do have

I thought of the things I have fought for

Sometimes it feels like I go back to the beginning

The beginning of a journey through hell

I just have to remind myself that I have already been there

I have already come this far

I have to say to myself this darkness

It is not who you are

Nyx

I do not walk alone

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All this time I thought I was walking alone

I was wrong

There has always been a presence beside me

This presence that is trying to guide me

Guide me towards my purpose

Guide me towards peace

There is a purpose for this pain

I am reassured by this

In everything that I do

Sometimes I have to listen

Sometimes I have to see

Sometimes I have to feel

Sometimes it is just a thought

I always find the answer

I always find a way

Because my guide is beside me

Every single day

Nyx

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Let the games begin

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Some days are so hard

When my mind is against me

Making things harder than they need to be

So I fight to stop these thoughts

It seems I never really win

I rise again today

Let the games begin

Nyx