The Pit

I am alone again

My thoughts have slowed down

I slept and then woke up to sadness

Once again not knowing what to do

At least I have my furry companions

They lay beside me now

Taking away a little piece of the pain

That pulls the rest of me away

My will is broken

The sadness is too strong

It keeps me trapped here in the darkness

Wishing it will end

Wishing I will see the light again

No matter what I do

No matter what I say

No matter where I go

The sadness never goes away

It is like an endless pit

That nothing will ever fill

I can climb it and think I’m getting better

I can climb so high

Then I scream

Then I shout

But I fear I will never make it out

Nyx

Pulling me

I sit here and I feel the pain

The pain that loneliness brings 

I remind myself that I have to feel

I remind myself that I cannot shut it off or I will never heal

But the heaviness wears me down

I feel it pulling me further away

Then I feel the pain in my chest

The same pain as before

The pain that I just do not want to feel anymore

Nyx

The void

Once again I exist in the darkness

Hiding from the world

Ashamed of what I look like

Ashamed of my lack of control

Emptiness and loneliness

Is all I feel today

In this void of nothing

This void that never ends

Nyx