I wish that I could escape
From my own mind
But I am stuck here
With my thoughts
With my self hate
Every moment of every day
I hate being in my skin
Nyx
Month: September 2020
The Pit
I am alone again
My thoughts have slowed down
I slept and then woke up to sadness
Once again not knowing what to do
At least I have my furry companions
They lay beside me now
Taking away a little piece of the pain
That pulls the rest of me away
My will is broken
The sadness is too strong
It keeps me trapped here in the darkness
Wishing it will end
Wishing I will see the light again
No matter what I do
No matter what I say
No matter where I go
The sadness never goes away
It is like an endless pit
That nothing will ever fill
I can climb it and think I’m getting better
I can climb so high
Then I scream
Then I shout
But I fear I will never make it out
Nyx
Pulling me
I sit here and I feel the pain
The pain that loneliness brings
I remind myself that I have to feel
I remind myself that I cannot shut it off or I will never heal
But the heaviness wears me down
I feel it pulling me further away
Then I feel the pain in my chest
The same pain as before
The pain that I just do not want to feel anymore
Nyx
The void
Once again I exist in the darkness
Hiding from the world
Ashamed of what I look like
Ashamed of my lack of control
Emptiness and loneliness
Is all I feel today
In this void of nothing
This void that never ends
Nyx
Words From The Borderline 
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