I hear the gate slam
As I fall into the flames
All I feel is emptiness and pain
I lie in the darkness
No longer wanting to exist in this world
With the gate slammed shut
I find my resolve
I have accepted my fate
I can not save myself
From my own mind
I just want to feel the flames
For the last time
Nyx
I am shrouded in darkness
Away from the light of the sun
I love it when thunder roars
And the rain starts to pour
I love the sound as it hits the ground
I love the light as it sparks with fury
As bolts shoot from the sky
And I love the color grey
Before everything turns black
I find comfort in the storm
The chaos of the clouds
Reminds me of my life
And the paradox of comfort from pain
Because it is all I know
Fear and anger
Sadness and agony
Tears that I can not stop from falling
Until a spark of awareness
Brings me back to reality
And takes the tears away
This awareness shuts me down
Until I am comfortably numb
Enjoying the lack of pain
Until the new cycle has begun
Nyx
Darkness has reminded me of the agony
That sadness brings
I will feel euphoria
Until it all comes crashing down
This is when I feel him near me
This is when he brings the pain
He is my reminder of who I used to be
He is my reminder of the torment I have felt
He is my reminder that everyone walked away
But today I fight him because I must
I have to remind myself
That I have always gotten back up
Every time I fell
I have to remind myself
That there is a way out of hell
Nyx
Today I wake up to new challenges
I am reminded of the uncertainty
That each day brings
And with each day a new dawn rises
Giving me the chance to start again
Giving me the energy to push myself forward
Because I either rise or fall
That decision is mine to make
With every step I do or do not take
Today I am taking a step
Because that is what I choose to do
Nyx
Only from the ashes of who we were
Can we rise up to become who we were meant to be
Nyx
Push him out
Let him in
Push him out
Let him in
Pain
Emptiness
More pain
I wish I could change
But I’ll probably just stay the same
I had a taste of my addiction
Now it’s gone
I just want to be dead
Nyx
I hear the tick
Of each moment in time
It comforts me
I know that with each tick I come closer to my end
I can’t wait for that last tick
Tick tock
Nyx
There’s the pain
If I go out
It will be with a bang
Nyx
Our souls are joined together
The way we were always meant to be
Take my hand
Walk out of hell with me
Nyx
Words From The Borderline 
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