Up and down
Down and up
Why can’t they stay the same
These emotions
That I just cannot contain
It is a form of torture
I wish on no one
I do not know how to stop them
They come and then they go
This is what happens when I stop moving
This is when it happens the most
All I can do is pray for peace
And pray that it will change
Nyx
What am I doing
How do I change who I am
Somedays all I want to do is sleep
Somedays all I want to do is run away
I cut them all out of my life
Then I want them back
What is wrong with me
I am so lost today
This is when I pull them back
After the damage is done
It is already too late
Nyx
Tomorrow the sun will rise
As I close my eyes
I see the world turn black
Sometimes I want to stay this way
Keep them closed forever
There are a few things that keep me here
So I will open them again tomorrow
Push past the sorrow
And walk out the door
Not for me but for them
I will fight until the end
Nyx
I see those eyes
Glare through the night
The blue so beautiful and bright
Beyond those eyes
A hollow soul lies
With no empathy or emotion
No capability of devotion
A predator waiting for prey
He eats you
Then tosses you away
You will pine for him
Because he draws you in
His fake smile shows no remorse
Because he does not care about you
He will rip you apart
Then tear out your heart
You will be left there to bleed
Until you gain the strength
To quench the need
And walk away
Nyx
There is no grey
I will hate you today
I will love you tomorrow
You will be the focus of my feelings
You will see my sorrow
All I see is black and white
Until I say goodbye
I can no longer stay
It hurts too much inside
All I do is wait
To hear the final lie
This is when I shut down
And let myself cry
Nyx
She exists alone again
There is no one there
To hold her hand
She seeks peace within herself
Because she has no choice
Forward she walks
Into the unknown
Somber still
Without a home
Nyx
As she walks away
The grass dies beneath her feet
The trees are blown from sight
The clouds they turn to grey
As the storm comes
She looks to the sky
As the rain falls
She closes her eyes
For just a moment she feels peace
Nyx
In the end I see
There will be no one beside me
I have to make myself believe
That I will be alright someday
That somehow I can make myself
Shut it down again
All the pain inside
I have to make it stop
Nyx
Alone I sit
Trying to make myself numb
It is not working today
As I push another away
I feel the pain in my chest
I am attracted to destruction
In this attraction I feel no shame
It is only myself
That I have to blame
I am trying to remember something good
I just cannot do it today
Nyx
The loneliness
It cripples me
People only care
To some degree
I see this when they walk away
Because they always leave
Today there is no light
Today I cannot see
There is only darkness
There is only pain
There are no roses
There is only rain
The agony is always there
When I let myself feel
When I let myself care
Nyx
Words From A Borderline 
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