She stood there
Her hair floated in the breeze
The pain it gripped her
Brought her to her knees
She screamed but no one heard her
She stretched out her arms
But no one saw
The scars that were red and raw
The sorrow and the screams were ignored
It was easier to look away
Than to look upon this girl
So they continued forward
As she stayed behind
To suffer alone
She was left there
Inside her home of pain
She was left there
And everyday she drowned
She was lost
She was seen
But without sound
Nyx
I feel the grass beneath my fingers as I walk
I feel the breeze as it brushes my face
I see the beauty of the sky
It is so blue today
I listen to the birds
As they sing to each other
I think of the comfort they have
From one another
Yet all of it does not take the agony away
All I can do is take the comfort that it brings
Maybe someday it will bring me the peace that I seek
Maybe someday I will be content in this life
Until then I try to live as I am
I have no choice
I am one of the damned
Nyx
At the core of who I am
There is a warrior
A fighter that I know is there
I remember when I feel the pressure build
I remember when I will my heartbeat to slow
I remember and I make myself let everything go
Because I will keep fighting
This is something I must do
I fight for me
I fight for you
Nyx
Today I question
Everything and everyone
Who am I
Who have I become
I feel so weary
As the anxiety
Brings me down
I feel so lost
I do not want to be found
I do not want to be consumed
By the pain that loneliness brings
By the fire that burns in my chest
I just want peace
I just want to rest
Nyx
I will not look behind me
I must be here today
I need to let go
Of the sorrows from yesterday
Because this is what must be done
Because this is what I do
Every day I rise
Trying to forget you
You are one of many
That I have to let go
My heart no longer aches
From the sorrow that you bring
The pain subsides
As I start to sing
This is what I must do
Walk away from you
Nyx
“However difficult life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at.”
Stephen Hawking
As I walk along the path
I listen as he speaks
Another person comes and goes
I had a few moments of peace
Before I realized once again
I haven’t found the one
I must continue to protect myself
As weary as I am
I must push myself to wake up
I must make myself stand
Nyx
