I cry everyday
Nothing keeps the pain away
As soon as I am alone
It hits me hard
I feel so broken
I feel so lost
Every day I live
I feel the cost
I feel myself grow weary
I feel the drain
All I feel is agony
It is always the same
I do not know what to do
To make it go away
All I have ever done
Is feel it everyday
I would give anything
To make the pain stop
I do not know how much longer
I can live this way
For now I sit here
Trying to make it through another day
Nyx
There is no rhyme or reason
For the way I feel
All that I can say
Is that the agony is real
It comes in waves
This feeling of despair
Sometimes it hits me hard
Then it is not there
This feeling slowly wears me down
As the days pass by
It wears me down so much
That all I can do is cry
As strong as I try to be
It never defeats the agony
But here I am once again
Pulling myself up
Making myself stand
It is all that I can do
It is all that I have ever done
I will not stop
Until I have won
Nyx
I feel the sadness
It is coming on
I do not know why
I do not know how to fix it
All I want to do is cry
I am not as strong
As I want to be
Because I can not live
Without someone beside me
This makes me weak
This person that I seek
I just want to be strong
I just want to move on
Alone with no one
Nyx
At this moment I feel so empty
Hollow inside
Sometimes I ask myself
Why I even tried
Why I thought that I could be happy
Why I thought I would find the door
The door that opens to another life
To a life without the pain
I can no longer endure
A life lived without the lack of love I long for
I will never be like everyone else
This I know is true
I will never see the world
The way that others do
I continue to suffer in silence
Reflecting to myself
I wonder if someone else could do better
With the deck I have in my hand
Then I realize this does not matter
Because I am one of the damned
I wish I did not feel this way
As I fight through another day
I just want everyone to know
To all of you who suffer in silence
You are not alone
Nyx
Today I see the sun
It shines through the trees
I watch as the leaves fall
I feel the breeze
I try to find within myself
The strength I know is there
I want to find my home
In my mind I take myself there
To another place and time
To this world inside my mind
To this world that is my dream
Not today not tomorrow
It’s somewhere lost you see
Maybe someday I will find
The path that leads me to my destiny
Nyx
It is so hard
To force myself forward
I just do not care right now
I feel my dreams slip away
Every moment
Every day
I just feel beaten
Broken down
All I want is someone there
To accept me as I am
It is so hard to get up today
It is so hard to find the ground
I am lost underneath
This shroud of darkness
I have lost my will today
I have lost myself
I just want to slip away
And become someone else
I cannot change who I am
But I have to move
I have to stand
Nyx
I feel myself fall
Farther and farther
I go
Into the depths below
It never stops
This cycle that is my life
There is no end to this game
I will never be the same
As I lay here broken
Pieces of me slip away
Once again all I feel is pain
Nyx
Words From A Borderline 
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