Month: December 2017

Obstacles

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With every obstacle that I face

I know there will be another

To take its place

It does not matter

Let them come

As long as I am still breathing

I will not stop

Until I have won

Nyx

Not slowing down

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One door closes

As another opens

I have chosen to walk forward

Picking paths as I go

Not slowing down

Until I have found

What I am looking for

Nyx

God give me strength

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How much more

Can I take

I just do not know

I feel ripped to the core

I care about nothing

I am so close to ending it

God give me strength

I’ve been fighting for so long

God give me the strength

To go on

Nyx

Because of you

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I have lost faith in the world

Because of you

I believe in nothing

Because of you

You had a mouth full of promises

But a pocket full of secrets

All the lies that you told me

All the things that I did not see

They almost caused my demise

Why couldn’t I see it in your eyes

Why couldn’t I see the lies

Maybe my heart will beat again someday

It does not beat today

Nyx

Disclaimer

This was inspired from the song mouthful of diamonds from the band phantogram.

Great song.

Pandora’s box

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I sit here numb

To everything around me

I feel the world cave in

As I look down at the water

I feel the apathy

As I make my choice

A choice I have made before

With every closing door

I take one last moment

To let myself feel the pain

It cuts so deep

I will never be the same

I look at the sky

Before I jump

Into the cold water below

This is where I belong

So this is where I go

When all is lost

I will take myself there

To Pandora’s box

Hoping for the darkness

Hoping for some peace

Hoping that this time

I do not come back

I just want the darkness

I just want to see the sky

I just want to see the sea

Then I want to die

Nyx

Falling

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I feel myself falling

Further and further

When does it end

When do I hit the ground

Nyx

Move on

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I feel the tall grass between my fingers

As I walk along the path

My heartache lingers

As I realize I can never turn back

I see the stream as it flows forward

Centering myself today

I have to live in the moment

I have to keep myself calm

It is the only way

That I can move on

Nyx

What am I looking for

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As another door closes

I look out to the sea

What am I looking for

What will set me free

Nyx

Overcome

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Beneath it all

I try to find hope

I try to find a way to overcome this

Depression

Nyx

Into the abyss

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I feel my body as it starts to shut down

In this moment I have no hope

I find no ground

I fall into the darkness

Into the abyss of my mind

I no longer care

I have no sense of time

I no longer hope

I no longer fear

All I do is sit here

Falling further down

Until I find the water

And let myself drown

 

To my readers and the people who care about my posts,

When I write, it is not always literal, it is not always about the present. Please do not interpret anything literally. I only say this, because I know that I have readers who think that what I write is always at this moment, and that is not the case. I will not always say when or where or how these poems come to me. I always appreciate everyones empathy, concern, and happiness when I post my poems. Please keep in mind that these posts are not always what they seem, they are not always literal, and they are definitely not always present day.  Please know that I appreciate everyone who enjoys my writing. I just think this needed to be said. To everyone who reads and supports my poems, I appreciate the hell out of you.   Peace and Love, Nyx