This world of dream’s

I have found a love

That I thought I would never find

In a land where I am yours

And you are forever mine

In your eye’s I see

This beautiful destiny

Staring at each other

So complete we are

The scars slowly fade

As we lay forever in the shade

Of each other’s love

In this world of dream’s, we have made

Nyx

 

Until I slip away

You keep yourself

Just beyond my reach

When you are ready

You pull me down below

Drown me in water

Or you throw me sideways

Through the window

With all the shards of glass

And the water I cannot swallow

You torture me until I slip away

Nyx

For the ashes of what once was 

As I walk through the trees 

I feel the breeze 

It is all I have to calm me 

In this moment as I grieve 

For the wishes and dreams I did not receive 

For the ashes of what once was 

For the memories that you gave me 

For the days that I have wept 

For something that was never real

There is no one that can save me 

From the fall that has begun 

There is no one that can reverse 

All the damage you have done 

As the anger subsides 

I find my resolve 

You are just another puzzle 

I was meant to solve 

Nyx

I will not rest 

Here comes another piece of metal 

Thrown my way 

I raise my shield 

Getting angrier every day 

I will bring justice 

I have no choice 

I do not have a sword 

But I have my mind 

Underestimate me 

Then you will see 

Your fate is sealed 

I will strip your life away 

A little more every day 

You will know what real pain is 

When you feel the fear that justice brings 

I will see it in your eyes 

I will smell it too

When one fears nothing 

They can smell it on you 

I swear to you I will fight 

With everything I have 

With everything that is left of me 

I will bring all of you down 

You will pay for what you have done 

I will not rest until I have won 

Nyx

I grab your hand 

The clouds are grey today 

The summer has slipped away

We can not stop the passing of time 

All I can do is fight for what is still mine 

As the seconds spill into the air like sand 

I take a deep breath 

And I grab your hand 

Nyx

Strength

The heaviness wears me down

All I want is sleep

I fight through another day

Dreaming of an empire I will build

But I may not make it

Before my skin starts to decay

I may not make it

Before the lights fade

To the dimmest shade of grey

I try not to dream of tomorrow

I try not to dream of yesterday

But this leaves me with an emptiness inside

One that will not go away

I cannot fix these fractures

They have taken their own form and shape

They have sliced away my feelings

Until there is nothing left

Self-destructive thoughts

And the longing for the dark

This is what I see today

Yet, I have stood up

As I write these words to you

I just need the strength to stay awake

I just need the strength to find myself again

I just have to make it

I just have to stand

Nyx

No control

The panic hits me

Then I crash

I cannot control it

There is no turning back

It starts like a tidal wave

Rising and turning

My chest starts to pound

Then it starts burning

I breathe in the air

I listen for a sound

I feel the world close in around me

As the air leaves my lungs

I have no control

Today it has won

Nyx

Anxiety 

I try not to worry about tomorrow 

I try not to worry about yesterday 

Somehow this doesn’t matter 

No matter what I tell myself 

No matter what you say to me 

Anxiety, It takes away the words you say

It takes away my rational mind 

Until there is nothing left 

But this electricity is wired around me 

It is my bind

If only I could find a way to escape it 

Before I completely lose my mind 

Everything is worse to me than it seems

But maybe I can rest again in my dreams 

Nyx