Finding balance and strength 

I hear the sound of the world outside 

As I try to find balance in my life 

I have always struggled to get by 

I have never stopped asking myself why 

I have made the decisions I have so far 

Then I reflect and tell myself 

This is who you are 

With every step forward 

And every step back 

I try to fill the pieces 

That have chipped away 

I push myself again today

To find the balance and the strength 

That I need to succeed 

Nyx

Ready for battle

I hear the raindrops 

Tick off my armor 

As I stand in the valley 

Ready for battle 

I hold my sword to the sky 

As I watch you quiver with fear 

I look in your eyes 

Before I say good bye 

Nyx

Finding myself again

When all is lost I look inward 

Finding myself again 

Nothing has gone as planned 

Yet I still stand 

With my head high 

As the world looks smaller below 

I look to the sky 

Nyx

Ripped apart

Live and learn they say 

Why do we have to learn

By being ripped apart

Where does the pain end 

When does this learning start 

I do not believe these words are true 

Each piece that is pulled from me 

Is another piece gone 

I was always this strong 

What I have learned is how not to fear 

But this was after being beat down 

Year after year 

Losing everything 

Again and again 

Falling further and faster 

With no where to land 

Being pushed down

Until I could not stand 

Having my head pushed under 

Until I was swallowing water 

This has made me fearless 

A monster you see 

Do you think I would be someone else

If this did not happen to me 

No I would still be me 

Nyx

Lost 

I question everything 

I question everyone

I don’t know where I am 

I don’t know what I have done

I am lost right now 

My steps have led me astray 

I hope I find my way again today 

Nyx

Untainted love

I question so many things 

But I do not question you 

You have stayed beside me 

Through the good days and the bad 

You have watched me crumble 

You have watched me fall 

You stood beside me through it all 

I have watched many come and go 

I have learned to rely on no one 

Yet in your eyes I see 

Something I have not seen before 

A love untainted and so sure 

I hope I can be this beauty you see forever 

I hope I can hold this strength to go on

I hope I am what you were looking for 

I hope I remain this person that you adore 

I hope I give you everything

That you give me and more 

Nyx

No one left 

There are some things 

I will never understand 

A love I will never see 

This was never meant for me 

The type of love bonded through blood

This is forever lost 

I fill the void in other ways 

Sometimes it has a cost 

I can fill my mind with wishes 

Dreams and hopes of love 

I can hope that I am guided 

By love shining down from up above 

But at the end of the day the truth is 

There is no one left but me 

Maybe my hardened heart 

Will someday set me free 

Maybe this is the only way 

That I was meant to be 

Nyx

Your end 

I raise my head higher

Never looking down 

My goal is to stay this predator that I am 

In my empire I will stand 

Without doubt, anger, or fear 

My enemies will quiver when I am near 

If you face me you will lose 

In the end I always win 

Play your hand my friend 

It will be your end 

Nyx

Blue skies 

The demon I know 

Or the unknown 

There is no clear path shown 

I wander away from the demon

Fighting through the trees 

I hope I find blue skies today 

As I continue to walk away 

Nyx