In a million ways 

My darling 

I just want you to know 

That for a million days 

In a million ways 

My love for you will only continue to grow 

You have become my sunshine 

After the storm

You have become my moonlight 

Showing me the way each night

You have become my peace 

When everything spins out of control 

You have become my everything 

You are the other half of my soul

Nyx 

In your arms 

I lay here wishing I could be 

In your arms my love 

Forever wrapped around each other 

With nights filled with kisses 

And the warmth of your embrace 

When I look in your eyes

I see your love reflect back upon my face 

My love I am so grateful 

Every time I look in your eyes

Every time I feel your arms around me 

Every time you see the pain 

And softly speak my name 

I will keep on wishing 

Until you come back to me 

In your arms is the only place 

I ever long to be 

Nyx

This monster that you made

I feel my heart stop beating  

I feel myself break in half 

Why am I always left here 

Alone in this place 

How many demons must I conquer

To forget your face 

You have destroyed 

Only to recreate 

It is too late to change 

This monster that you made 

I try to dream 

I try to float away 

Instead I scream

As I drown on the inside

Remembering all the lies 

I try to live in this moment 

But this moment does not last 

What I would not give 

To be able to erase the past

Nyx 

Monotonous life

Each day I rise with hope 

Some days it lasts 

Some days it does not 

Today I hope I find the peace that I seek

I hope that in a few hours 

I do not feel weak 

I hope that deep inside I keep 

Some form of strength left 

Because I feel beaten down 

I feel so weary 

Right now everything I see is dark 

Everything is dreary 

Each day seems the same as the last 

Constantly fighting the past

I live as this broken person 

With a smile plastered on my face

On the inside all I feel is disgrace

Everyday to me is exactly the same 

This monotonous life of pain 

I will try to escape from the pain today 

Let’s see if I succeed 
Nyx

I have lost all hope 

I have moments of peace 

They do not last long 

Then I feel the pain 

As I try to sing along 

Sometimes words may help me

Sometimes they do not 

All I know for sure 

Is peace is all I have ever sought 

No matter how much I have cried 

No matter how much I have fought 

I have yet to find it 

Maybe someday I will 

Maybe someday the earth will stay still 

Just maybe I will find the one 

To make me feel safe from it all

To protect me from harm 

Maybe he will grab my hand 

Before I hit the ground 

At this moment I have no hope 

All I do today is

Find the strength to go on 

Find the strength to cope 

This loneliness will stay 

It must be my eternal debt to pay 

I guess I just have to except it 

This is just the way it is 

I have lost all hope 

That someday I will truly be his 

Nyx

Lost to this world 

I feel numb 

Lost to this world

I am fading 

Fading into nothing 

I no longer care 

About anything at all

All I want to do is free fall 

Free fall to nothing 

Close my eyes 

Feel the air 

Pushing against my skin 

I feel the darkness push me further 

As I slowly disappear 

Farther and farther I fall 

Until I am merely mist in the air 

Darkness pushes me down 

He wants me to disappear 

He wants me to hit the bottom 

This is when peace will come 

This is when I will go back 

Back to where I come from

Nyx

To my readers,

This poem is how I have felt in the past, not today. Thank you all for your continued support. Peace and love. Nyx 

The tide 

I try to push the feeling away 

But as the panic rises 

I have no control 

It bursts through me like a tidal wave

There is nothing I can do today 

The tide has blown me away 

Nyx 

Drifting 

Underneath the lamplight

I lay my weary head

Thinking I might be safer

But still wishing I was dead

A drifter is what I was

I guess I still am

Drifting from here to there

Going no where

Stepping forward

Then stepping back

Waiting for the next swing

Bracing myself for the next hit

Wondering when I will lose it

Nyx