My darling
I just want you to know
That for a million days
In a million ways
My love for you will only continue to grow
You have become my sunshine
After the storm
You have become my moonlight
Showing me the way each night
You have become my peace
When everything spins out of control
You have become my everything
You are the other half of my soul
Nyx
I lay here wishing I could be
In your arms my love
Forever wrapped around each other
With nights filled with kisses
And the warmth of your embrace
When I look in your eyes
I see your love reflect back upon my face
My love I am so grateful
Every time I look in your eyes
Every time I feel your arms around me
Every time you see the pain
And softly speak my name
I will keep on wishing
Until you come back to me
In your arms is the only place
I ever long to be
Nyx
The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes. Marcel Proust
I feel my heart stop beating
I feel myself break in half
Why am I always left here
Alone in this place
How many demons must I conquer
To forget your face
You have destroyed
Only to recreate
It is too late to change
This monster that you made
I try to dream
I try to float away
Instead I scream
As I drown on the inside
Remembering all the lies
I try to live in this moment
But this moment does not last
What I would not give
To be able to erase the past
Nyx
Each day I rise with hope
Some days it lasts
Some days it does not
Today I hope I find the peace that I seek
I hope that in a few hours
I do not feel weak
I hope that deep inside I keep
Some form of strength left
Because I feel beaten down
I feel so weary
Right now everything I see is dark
Everything is dreary
Each day seems the same as the last
Constantly fighting the past
I live as this broken person
With a smile plastered on my face
On the inside all I feel is disgrace
Everyday to me is exactly the same
This monotonous life of pain
I will try to escape from the pain today
Let’s see if I succeed
Nyx
I have moments of peace
They do not last long
Then I feel the pain
As I try to sing along
Sometimes words may help me
Sometimes they do not
All I know for sure
Is peace is all I have ever sought
No matter how much I have cried
No matter how much I have fought
I have yet to find it
Maybe someday I will
Maybe someday the earth will stay still
Just maybe I will find the one
To make me feel safe from it all
To protect me from harm
Maybe he will grab my hand
Before I hit the ground
At this moment I have no hope
All I do today is
Find the strength to go on
Find the strength to cope
This loneliness will stay
It must be my eternal debt to pay
I guess I just have to except it
This is just the way it is
I have lost all hope
That someday I will truly be his
Nyx
I feel numb
Lost to this world
I am fading
Fading into nothing
I no longer care
About anything at all
All I want to do is free fall
Free fall to nothing
Close my eyes
Feel the air
Pushing against my skin
I feel the darkness push me further
As I slowly disappear
Farther and farther I fall
Until I am merely mist in the air
Darkness pushes me down
He wants me to disappear
He wants me to hit the bottom
This is when peace will come
This is when I will go back
Back to where I come from
Nyx
To my readers,
This poem is how I have felt in the past, not today. Thank you all for your continued support. Peace and love. Nyx
Today I wake
Weary with dread
Wondering
What will come next
Nyx
I try to push the feeling away
But as the panic rises
I have no control
It bursts through me like a tidal wave
There is nothing I can do today
The tide has blown me away
Nyx
Underneath the lamplight
I lay my weary head
Thinking I might be safer
But still wishing I was dead
A drifter is what I was
I guess I still am
Drifting from here to there
Going no where
Stepping forward
Then stepping back
Waiting for the next swing
Bracing myself for the next hit
Wondering when I will lose it
Nyx
Words From The Borderline 
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