Bleeding Heart

April 30, 2017April 30, 2017 / Nyx / 15 Comments

I thought I was strong

But right now I am weak

I should have known all along

What my weakness was

I should have remembered

That happiness isn’t real

I should have remembered

The way that heart break makes me feel

I didn’t remember until the pain hit

I didn’t remember until my chest was burning

I didn’t remember until the world around me was shaking and turning

Well here I am

As I sit

Asking myself what is wrong with me

Blaming myself because I didn’t see

What my weakness was all along

That I am not strong

I am a bleeding heart

Doomed from the start

My bleeding heart is my weakness

Nyx

When you took my heart

April 28, 2017April 28, 2017 / Nyx / 11 Comments

Maybe we were created

Maybe we do have souls

Maybe something split us in half

All I know for sure

Is that my love for you is real

That the pull only continues to grow

That when I feel my heart slow

I know that yours does the same

This was never going to be easy

This we knew from the start

But I knew it was more than worth it

When you took my heart

You will never beat me

April 28, 2017December 10, 2019 / Nyx / 4 Comments

Watch me as I stumble

Watch me as I fall

Watch the world crash down around me

Watch me while I say fuck you all

You will never beat me

Because you cannot break

What has already been broken

Nyx

Lies

April 28, 2017April 28, 2017 / Nyx / 8 Comments

Trust I have come to learn

I will never find

The only one I can trust is me

I will never again be blind

I will never again be vulnerable

I have had enough of the dishonesty

I have had enough of everyone

There is nothing more that I hate

There is nothing that makes me sicker

There is nothing more that I despise

Than people telling me fucking lies

Where do I begin

April 27, 2017 / Nyx / 4 Comments

Beneath the surface all I see

Are fissures filled with darkness

Cracks in my soul

Spread throughout and hardened

With each hardship, with each toll

They spread further and wider

Right beneath the surface

Right beneath the skin

Where does the darkness end

When do I begin

Dead Inside

April 26, 2017 / Nyx / 15 Comments

I wish I knew what was wrong with me

Sometimes I wish that I couldn’t see

I wish I was blind to everything

I wish I was blind to everyone

I just want to escape this life

I just want to be someone else

I don’t want to feel this pain anymore

I don’t want to feel anything at all

What is it that I am fighting for

Is it freedom, or is it something more

Maybe I will find the answer

Or maybe I will never get that far

I guess it doesn’t really matter

I am still locked inside a cage

With agony trapped inside

Mixed with sorrow and with rage

Here I am again, back and forth I go

I would love to feel peace for just a moment

I would love for my heart rate to slow

I give up on hopes and wishes

I give up on dreams today

I just want to lay here tonight

Dead inside as I wait for the sun to rise

Nyx

Through the door

April 26, 2017April 26, 2017 / Nyx / 3 Comments

I sit here feeling my chest cave in
Wondering why everything is a fight
When I think it will begin
When I know that something is right
The door is slammed in my face
Why can’t I just erase
The things that keep me from you
Why can’t I just escape from this cage
What else do I need to go through
To get through the door
What else do I need to go through
To get to you

Nyx

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