I sit and listen to the sound of my heart beating
I feel my mind retreating
Falling back into that dark place
Don’t look behind you
Just keep looking ahead
Don’t remember any of the words he said
In the end all you have is you
No one else has seen what you have
No one else has lived your life
You must push past it all
Do not look back…do not look down… do not fall
I updated my about page again, this time I spent a lot of time trying to truly express what this blog is and what it means to me. To all of you who are always supportive and kind, I truly appreciate you so much. I just want you to know that your encouragement means the world to me.
Through everything I have been through… In this moment I can say I am eternally grateful for music and my cat
The light has dawned again
A new day has come
I hate that I am reminded sometimes where I come from
Once again I bring myself out of that dark place
Once again I stand up and look past that face
Leave me alone darkness
I swear you will never win
Stay where you belong… live your own life of sin
I dream of something more
Someone I have searched for…but have not found
I feel incomplete…alone…and bound
I don’t want to stop searching
but I have given up hope
I thought I found you more than once
I thought I found you but I was wrong
So here I sit and feel the pain
I want to find you…my missing piece
I want to be whole
Is there more than one of you…I guess I will never know
I wake up and I fight today
As the rain falls from the sky
I wonder why sometimes sadness grips me
As I wait for you and I…
To find that special place…to find that common ground
In the meantime I listen as the rain falls
I listen to the sound
So peaceful it makes me feel today
The beauty of the rain
It slows my beating heart
It slowly heals the pain
Wow does it suck when people disappoint you
But you know what’s worse…when your the idiot who continues to let them do it
So today I say fuc* your indifference
Fuc* my idiocy and fuc* you
